WHAT DOES SHE MEAN BY THAT?

I know it sounds like cowardice...but wat did she mean by that...was it about me...or about somebody else?...first thing which comes to my mind is to pick up the damn phone n find out..but the thing is ..she's here..n not in india. That leaves me with no contact number. And what if it was'nt me who she was referring to.....blah...all this seems so ...how do i say it..??..painful.?..to be so close yet so far!!..how long have i known her..a month..? how many tmes have i spoken on phone to her....??...once.??...why?..i dont know....maybe b'cos she was with someone else then..i dont know...i guess i'll have to wait n c wat happens...

HAPPYNESS..an abused word

Guess what....??.....The term happyness does seem relative to me. And as Will said...it doesnt have a "y" in it. All this while i hae been trying to find it in my surroundings. Be it the workplace....the academies or well...while talking to someone. But all this time it has been there inside me. Waiting to be discovered. Not that i ve found it yet or something ..but yes a job well begun is half done ...right??. Ve had my share of heartbreak for quite some time now and have learned to cope with it. And do wonder how long this 'll go on n on. but again..time is the best healer.....so i guess i 'll give it a little time . Frozen white...eh??...sounds a fancy instrument rating for a rookie pilot. I 'll settle for that though...better things yet to come. Cheers to that...n adieu till next.

pravs

23 yrs of ignorance n sheer bliss!!

as the other posts leave a footprint in my mind.....my disturbed and often vague thoughts form a union..a bonding unspoken of before. The reason n desires bocome more clear. 7 months of anonymity has not done any good to me. I know that this blog is a temporary thing..for tomorrow when i rev up my jet to go n fly like a free bird..all my thoughts will be left behind on the ground. But for the brief moment when i have the time to try something...to feel something i never have before....the pain keeps going away. Am i in love??..i ask myself time n again but there is no answer ...b cos maybe its true...i have become heartless.(maybe). hope still prolongs fr the lost souls....her laughter...boredom ...sense of restlessness and spontainity sounds a bell in the hollow confines of my heart............
pravs